Lawson

“squeeze”

“squeeze,” explores the relationship between a woman and her own sexuality. The relationship I have experienced women most often have with their own bodies, sexualities, and gender is paradoxical. You should have a certain level of “innocence” until you shouldn’t. For me, growing up in a southern Church of Christ, “innocence” is what kept you “pure,” and “purity,” is what gave you worth. The anomaly, however, is that neither of these labels have any sort of standardized interpretation. Still, we are expected to adhere to the unstated but deeply ingrained societal idea that women, not men, are designed to be the gatekeepers of desire, sexuality, attraction, and the greatly undefined idea of purity. 

Expectation to live up to an inexact (or sometimes even out of one’s own control) value is the artist of this paradoxical relationship between a woman and herself.

The cultural emphasis on equating purity and physicality has resulted in self hatred, confusion, shame, and fear, and enabled abuse. Therefore, squeezed out is the identity, confidence, and sense of being from sexuality. Worth is not equal to blurred terms.





Previous Work: 

In all of my work, I strive to express my sense of self through what I may deem unique experiences. I often use blurs and desaturation in order to create more dream-like scapes to put a more ethereal spin on an ordinary moment in time.

“what i know about love,” features my four closest girlfriends and is meant to express the intricacies and importance of platonic feminine intamacy. The images are lighthearted and blurred as if seen through a drunken memory or dream.

“shower thoughts,” is a collection of self portraits that I believe largely reflect me in this moment in time. I am clean yet somehow still frantic, singing passionately, eating a pickle... all circumstances in which you might find me at any given moment.

“what i know about love”


“shower thoughts”